Just Watch The Fireworks ♥

So basically I've given up, no not on life, but on being sorry for myself. That's all 2007 was, an excuse for me to be sorry for myself. Really? Is that anyway to live my life? I'm going to do things I've wanted to do for a long time for me, not for anyone but me.
I'm done looking at the bad side of things. The side I absolutly hate just because people have told me to. I'm going to do a number of things and make 2000 freakin 8 the best damn year I've ever had.
I'm going to get into Carver first off, and if that doesn't happen; I'll live. I'm going to get a job so I can get some cold hard freakin cash, I'm going to write my book because I want to finish one, I'm going to get the guy because at the rate of running into him I'm going, he's got to at least of aknowledged my presents already, I'm going to go to every concert imaginable, I'm going to get through and survive freshmen year thanks to my bestest friend, Kelsey. I'm going to spend my money wisely, I'm going to do everything possible to help me achieve my dreams of becoming an author, I'm going to help save some lives, I'm going to put out my designs, and to top it all off, I'm going to get the guy, because at some point in time I have to change his life somehow, whether it be just running into him 39028 bajillion times, or talking to him which hopefully will come soon enough, one day he'll open his eyes and we'll be more then just aquaintences (more or less aquaintences), oh and he'll break up with stupid head.
Oh and I'm going to dress pretty because I feel happy at school when I'm wearing what I want to wear and doing what I want to do, which is writing, and working towards my ever living dream of finishing high school and going to NYU.
My life is done waiting around, and being a nobody, time to be happy or at least make the best of a given suituation, I'm going to be Me.
Not anyone else just mwah.

But one last complaint before I go on the quest to find Natalie:
These benefit concerts.
Em K.... so a year ago I started a benefit concert with my two best friends. I can promise you I did because I have a solid amount of people who were involved, I also have countless messages from bands interested as well as proof in a MySpace. Do you remember a year ago when someone messaged me saying I'm crazy? Ahahaha, now look at you all, really it's pathetic especially because the idea of a benefit concert was pathetic when I did it. But now that you're doing it you seem to think it's an amazing yet impossible idea.
Hah, really.... half the bands you most likely can't afford and in the long run you'll realize what you're thinking of doing is really hard.
Word of advice; donate your money, not someone else's especially when half the bands won't even do it.
KJN was the first ever benefit concert idea, thanks for stealing our "pathetic and impossible" idea, really.
Oh and for the people who are doing the one with the original fans, that's a little unfair. Especially because half the old fans, the ones who went and stood in line, and sent evil messages to Columbia you probably don't even know. So how on earth are you going to get every original fan? Hm....? Really it's a bit stupid, either include everyone or no one.
The original old fans are all over the place and you seem to not really care that you're just inviting your friend/aquaintences.
Anyways, that's my raint of the day.
Oh and please stop bluffing, no one can afford the Jonas Brothers, much less interupt their tour so you can have a private concert with all your friends.
I'm not saying it's not going to happen but I'm saying stop making everyone feel terrible, it's not really worth all this crap.
Okay I'm really really really done.
P.L.H.
N.C.L.