Change

Change is a scary thing. It's one of those things you know is going to happen but you try your best to avoid it at any cost what so ever. You even think if you can just hide under the covers and count to a bajillion it will all just stay like that, but then you wake up and you realize nothing is ever the same and everything changes.
Ever since high school these changes have occured, changes that I thought would never happen but still widdled their way into my in-genious plan. I mean c'mon my best friend, who I can still remember was the first person at Hereford to ever say "Hi" to me is living with someone I really hate. I'm worried she could get in trouble just because, the person she's living with is the person who could get her in trouble and more then ever I just wish I was back in elementry school, where nothing bad ever happened and that you were always assured something and that was to have the same people in the same class and that everyone liked eachother and there was no drama.
I watched as my favorite band, became something huge, became something amazing and I watched as millions of screaming girls became in awe with these boys who tried to be our friends, the boys who sang for no one the boys who sat in a crowded mini-van just to see us. Now I see these 945486308 girls screaming JONAS JONAS JONAS! and it feels like these guys who you thought you knew were leaving you forever. It's those times, those times when I think of September 19th and how happy I was, that I was in reaching distance of The JOE JONAS! The guy who stole my heart, the guy who I thought was just the greatest the guy I most thought was like me, and the guy whom became my hero along with his brothers, it's those days when I think back to the excitment and the screaming that I really, really wish I could keep forever. It's held in a special place in my heart because it was one of the best nights of my life.
Sure Jonas will become huge, make millions, marry some super-model, have kids and die happy. They did what they wanted but yet, we never even got to say goodbye.
There are a lot of things I could say to those boys today, I'd say how much I miss them, and I may even insult them a few times, but above all I'd say how truely, truely proud I am of them. They changed my life and even though I'm letting go of the Jonas Brothers, I'm not letting go of Kevin, Joe and Nick. Those three guys, whom I have to say did become my friends in a way, they did become the guys I built a special relationship with even though they didn't know, it was like we were friends. And when they go multi-platinum and out sell Kelly Clarkson they will always, and I mean always be Kevin Joe and Nick, not the Jonas Brothers, but the guys who lived in Jersey, with their mom, dad and little brother, Frankie, and their best friends were Mandy & Joey.
And even when I forget about them and my life becomes a non-jonas life there will ALWAYS be a small place in my heart for them. Is this goodbye to my Jonas obsession? I'm not quite sure. But for right now, I just want to think of all those amazing things and experiences I have gotten from them.

"People change, and promises are broken"

"Hold back your thoughts and live like robots because we all know what goes on"

Above all this, true, original fan stuff, I know how much they did and do care about these fans and to me they will always be the guys who had this in their songs:

"But she only sang, S Club 7 And all those boy bands."

Cheesy I know but thanks for reading!
Love Always,
N.C.L.