Twilight equals love of my life.

Behold

Besides the reassurance of "Jorge" being in school the next day. These three books are what has gotten me through the past couple weeks.

So my English/AVID class has decided to finally be smart (just kidding) and pick up a book. With that I'd decided what the heck, I'd pick up one too. After much heming and hawing, I was told to pick up Twilight. Little did I know I'd become a Twilighter, a true Vampire/werewolf addict.

In case you haven't read the book, or for that matter heard of it, I'll clue you in. It's about a girl who falls in love with a vampire. Pretty easy, simple plot. But my goodness amazing.

After much searching through Greetings & Readings, and many other bookstores I finally found it at Barnes & Noble. I hate Barnes & Noble for a number of reasons but I won't get into that. Anyway. I bought the book, well not me. I'm broke but my mom bought the book. And I started reading it the next day.

OH MY GOSH.

Amazing is not the word for it. More like remarkable. Not just because I finished a book that was 300 pages in less then two days. But the fact I actually enjoyed it. So after some pacing and screaming "I NEED THE SECOND BOOK!" My dad came and got me and low and behold "New Moon" fell into my hands.

That book was done in less then a week because it was a little longer and let's face it. School takes over my life. After more screaming in terror at not knowing what's happening I got "Eclipse" and now as we speak I am reading it. I'm taking this one slow. Very s l o w because well.... I want it to last. The next book doesn't come out till August 2nd (also one year anniversery of seeing Jonas at Six Flags) so I will be celebrating Jonas and a new book.

Once I'm done this book I will return to start "Twilight" as soon as my waiting list of people who would like to borrow it comes down.

I am truely in love with a fictional book character. It's really actually upsetting.

With that I thought I'd share some of my favorite scenes. Since all my books are out (I'm the human library). I'll share the scene title and the scene info:

Driving scene:

When Bella (Main girl character/narrorator) is in the car with Edward (Vampire/amazing) and she's talking about how fast he drives. And he replies with "Of all the things about me that could frighten you, you worry about my driving."

Porsche scene:

When Edward bribs his "sister" Alice to watch Bella. He buys her an expensive porsche that she was in love with when they were in Italy (see next scene).

Italy scene:

When Bella goes to Italy to save Edward. He's trying to kill himself because he thought Bella was dead.

"Depressing period" scene:

When Edward leaves Bella. And for those months she's depressed and lonely. That was the saddiest part and I cried my eyes out.

The "Bed" scene:

It sounds bad but it's just funny. Edward & Bella have no intercource? does that sound right? well anyway... he bought her a bed for when she has to be "babysat" by Alice so she can stay in his room (Edward doesn't sleep). Instead of sleeping in the bed she sleeps on the couch. When he comes home he moves her to the bed. And gives her examples, while leading her on, about why the bed is so good. This quote made my day; "see this would be very hard to do on a couch."

There are many more scenes that I lovelovelove in "Twilight" but those are a few I just happen to really really find great!

Talk to you soon,

NCL xoxoxoxo

A Very Random Blog.

I'm really starting to hate the internet.
I've got someone mad at me because of a spot on my top friends, which now FYI has four random people on it:
Jonas Brothers. Push Play. Taylor Swift. Kerrington Copper. That's all, and I get yelled at for it.
Oh and I'm really starting to hate coming over my dad's house. It's starting to get hard to bare the fact I'm disapointing everyone.
In that part of Little Miss Sunshine when the son, Dwayne is "talking" more like talking and writing with the Uncle. And he writes "Welcome To Hell" that's how I feel whenever I come over here.
Like someone is holding up a sign in my face saying; "Welcome to Hell."
The only time I'm away is when I have six hours of school, and that's not fun, and now I'm stressing about that, ugh.
At least I had a good two days of no school. Oh and I'm failing Tech, hah randomocity.
Oh, Edie, Meredyth and I composed a list of guys we thought were cute, while waiting for my idiot sister to turn on her phone at the mall. Here's mine:
1. Nick Jonas
2. Kevin Jonas
3. Joe Jonas
4. Steve Scarola
5. CJ Baron
6. Nick DeTurris
7. Derek Ries
8. Martin (Boys Like Girls)
9. Tony Oller
10. James Marsden
11. Ryan Gosling
12. Patrick Dempsy
13. James Lafferty
14. Paul Dino
I can't find the list so that is a summary, notice how half of those are over 25, hah. But they're like my guilty pleasures. Anyways... they're not in order but whatever.
My stomach is really hurting, and I'm upset because I left my mom's house, AKA heaven, and now I have to act like I'm happy, so I don't upset my dad.
I really needed my therapist today, but again two more weeks till I see her again.
Anyways... I'm leaving now because I'm going to try to eat, and hopefully not get sick.
Adios.

My Two Best Friends ♥

Edie:
You will forever and always be my best friend. We're like Brook and Peyton, except I don't call you E. Pal*** and you don't call me N. Let**. How to begin to explain our relationship? We're so crazy and fun it's ridiculous. Whenever we're together we have to put out a federal warning because we get so crazy.
I've never seen anyone drink so many beers in my life, gosh Edie. I've also never seen anyone eat so many limes, you go crazy for them.
We're pretty random, and I have to say our randomness gets us into crazy suituations, like cleaning up after my dad's par-tay. I can't even begin to explain you and my crazy experiences. Malls are lots and lots of fun. We are like the elevator people, it's so crazy. And no I won't hold your hand no esculators for me EVER! I loved seeing "Disturbia" with you, even though your dad and brothers came in, they didn't agknowlege us. You're my best friend in the universe. We've been through some rough times, including a year separation. We've gone through drama and even though you lost your best friend and I lost mine it somehow brought us together because we realized, hey let's us two be best friends!
Just know that you'll forever and always be my best friend, through thick and thin. You'll also always be the person I can call at 10 at night because I'm upset. And vise versa for you. You're probably one of the only people who knows all of my secrets and that's amazing. You will ALWAYS be my best friend no matter how many people try to teer us apart!

Kelsey:
My tech buddy! I love how I can tell you everything that happens with me and Jorge and you just laugh about it.
"Oh I don't know him he must not be important"
"Sup?" (Funny look)
"Natalie, your face is so red."
"Did you write about Jorge in there?"
"Hi.... I'm Kelsey.... What's your name?"
"P*****, that's a funny last name."
"We'll live on P****Green Letter lane"
"Your girlfriend has the jaw the size of a shark
"HOTT GLUE!"
"He likes you."
"Give it up Josh in no way does she wanna fuck you."
Hah those are only a few quotes to describe our friendship. I love how you know how to start a random conversation about last names and somehow end with addresses and kids. I also love how I speed by Jorge and his girlfriend and you yell "Natalie Christine L****" and embarass me. Then you just run past him and go "Sup?" lol. That'll forever sit in my head. Also when we're behind him and we're talking about him and her and I'm just oblvious.
"Oh I thought he had more then 1 coat."
"She's really ugly, they don't make a cute couple."
"Ew... Natalie she's gross."
"Who?"
(Points in front.) (Laughs hysterically)
"Bye Kelsey!"
"Natalie Christine L*****"
Jorge and his girlfriend look at me then at you.
"What?"
"Sup?" lol.
Just the fact I can laugh about Jorge and how much of a sexy hot beast he is makes me laugh so hard. Thank you for being the friend who hot glues me to chairs.

Dear Jonas Brothers,

Dear Jonas Brothers,
Words can not describe how proud we are of you. We've seen you grow into the real "Jonas Brothers" and become not just three rockstars, but three friends. Three amazing guys whom became the heroes of thousands of girls. Not many people have been able to get through what you've gotten through and what you've overcome and in a way we're so greatful you did.
When you first came out most of us didn't really know who you were, we didn't know about your music and we certainly didn't think we'd fall in love with you and your music. But... we grew to like your music, and a few of us ventured out searching for your CD, "It's About Time" and going through Wal-Mart shelves and running from Best Buy to Circuit City to FYE all not being sucessful in finding your CD. And we listened to you saying you "love a girl from senior class" and you're ready to "Fly away" we even cried when you told us "you just don't know it" through your music we related to you. We understood how it felt to be away from the one you loved, and to stay the way you are, no if, ands, or buts. Your music became our getaway, our way to leave the outside world. And even though it was only forty five minutes, we felt good, we felt almost like we could do anything.
Now that you're in Hollywood, and away from the people who care, and love you. We want you to know we're so incredibly proud of you for just being, you. Being the amazing guys you are. The guys who told us it was okay to be underdogs because one day we'll do something amazing, the guys who told us we are what we are, don't like us? Oh well.
Nowadays you're touring the country, and playing massivly huge shows with thousands of screaming teenies. But when you're playing up there, watching those kids screaming their heads off, just remember us little fans.
The ones who got picked on for liking you guys, and the ones who waited twelve hours just for you to get out of your hotel room. The ones who screamed "I Am What I Am" instead of "Kids Of The Future" and the ones who fell in love with you over the song, "Mandy" not "S.O.S." and the ones who actually searched for your CD in Wal-Mart and yelled at the cashiers when they said; "we don't carry that band, sorry"
The ones who stayed with you when Columbia dropped you because your "fanbase was to small."
We aren't trying to take any credit for what you did, what you overcame, or any of that. We just want you to always remember where you came from.
Maybe in twenty five years, you'll look back on this and say; "wow, we did all this" and maybe you'll still be rockin. But in those twenty five years make sure you remember we helped you there and we are so proud of you.
This letter may not be seen by anyone, it may stay somewhere and one day you'll stumble upon it and go; "oh gee... nice letter." But at least you'll of seen it.
Again, we are so proud of you, and we can't show how greatful we are that you shared your amazing music with us so we could get past all that crazy teenage stuff, you truely have changed so many lives.
Love,
The Original-True Fans.

Looking through my old projects.

So I found this English paper in my Microsoft word processor. I had to write it for English at the begining of January. I think I got a B? on it I'm not sure. But I read it and started to cry. So I decided to post it here. I'm not trying to bring anything up again, I'm just showing you how much you both meant to me.:

A person that means a lot to me. That’s a tough one to write out beings I have two best friends whom I couldn’t and I don’t know how I could live without. Their names are Leanne and Aimee.
When I met them it was through MySpace, I know, I know. People aren’t supposed to meet people over MySpace; it’s just not the thing to do. They could’ve been stalkers. Well they weren’t. It all started in July. I ran a fansite for Shari & Mandy two best friend who were connected to the Jonas Brothers, also known as my favorite band. Anyways, someone told me to add this band, “LOL” they said they needed some major friend requests and I could probably help them. So I clicked their link and their profile popped up, it was two girls, one was 14 and one was 16. They were saying how their band started out as a joke and that it now it’s a huge part of their lives. I soon noticed their state, Maryland. I wondered what part they were from and I commented them about it. They replied; “we’re from Bel-Air and Havre De Grace you?” I soon told them Baltimore and we started chatting. Before I knew it, it was going on 12:00 and we were still exchanging comments.
Soon it was four days after and we were inseparable. We’d been exchanging and exchanging comments and my entire fansite comment page was filled with their comments. We soon started Iming and I became a part of their band. It was from that moment we became best friends.
LeAnne is 16, she was the one I talked to first. She’s also the good friend to everyone. If you’ve ever seen “Dumb & Dumber” all the things they did in there, she’d do in real life. Not saying she’s dumb, she’s actually really smart but she’s way crazy. She’s an excellent singer for one. She was in a Talent Show with her best friend Dorothy, and sang “Inseparable” by the Jonas Brothers and she did so amazing, I was literally so proud of her! Not just because she did amazing, but because she went up there in front of all her friends and family and did an amazing job. I took a trip to New York with her, and we had an interesting time. But I think that trip really made her officially one of my best friends.
Aimee is 15, she was born the day before me. So that was a little freaky. She’s really shy, but can be wild and crazy. She’s a really good listener, and doesn’t take any crap from anyone. She’s an amazing friend, and if you’re her friend you’ve got a good person to pick you back up when you’re down.
The first time I ever met Leanne and Aimee was at the Maryland fair. It was a lot of fun; we met up with Jessi and Haleigh two of their friends. We went on the Ferris wheel, and a worker jumped on our cart thing. He was talking to us as well as scaring us but we managed to survive that. We also went on the tilt-a-whirl. I went with Aimee. The two of us didn’t really want to spin while Leanne however was ready to get sick so to say. Leanne ended up not being able to spin because there was a screw coming out of where you needed to push to spin. But Aimee and I however spun around so fast we could’ve gotten sick. That was the last time we’d ever ride the tilt a whirl.
The next day they came over my mom’s house. We perfected the bacon pizza, wa-ho! We walked up to a cemetery to scare Aimee, which we found to be fun. It was creepy but fun. And we drew with chalk over my entire driveway. It lasted for two more weeks. We had the ultimate sleepover, and I can guarantee my mom didn’t sleep at all.
I think the reason I get along with them so much is because we have the same interests. Push Play, The Jonas Brothers, Joey Page, and Chris Koon. We love all of those kids right there. We also all like bacon pizza, which I actually didn’t like till Leanne introduced me to it. We all get along so well, it’s amazing.
We went to Virginia together to see the Jonas Brothers. That was a crazy trip, full of hotel fun, and pool fun, and feet behind bushes. I think that hotel has a restricted sign for us because we caused such a ruckus. We went to the Virginia state fair and I can’t exactly remember what we rode, except they rode the “Round Up” and almost got sick, I had to buy them two huge diet cokes. We saw Joey Page, and became obsessed with him. We were in row Z which was really far but we still stuck through it and had a ball.
I later went to New York with Leanne, which I can say was a roller coaster ride, with freaky greyhounds, and getting lost, and raining so much. I really have to say me and Leanne have sworn off ever going to New York again.
Aimee went with me to my parent’s wedding. She stayed with me and we ended up having a good time dancing with my little neighbor, we had so much fun and I don’t think I would’ve had that much fun without her.
There is probably not enough room for the amount of reasons they are my best friends. There is also probably not enough paper in the world to write down why I love the two of them so much. We’ve had our up and our downs and being friends with the two of them is hard because we live so far away but I know I always will have them.
We do tend to fight a lot over stupid things, mostly because Leanne is wild, Aimee has a small patience for me, and I’m the drama queen. But we always rise above our differences. I’ve never had two amazing friends I could actually really; seriously consider my two sisters and I could probably adopt the two of them.
I know for a fact Aimee is going to marry Nick Jonas, Leanne is going to marry Joe Jonas and I’ll be marrying Steve Scarola from Push Play. We really can’t drink energy drinks around each other for fear of literally bouncing off the walls. I now know I can survive three hour long car rides, and a bus with crazy people. Which most likely means we can survive anything together? We’ve dubbed “On The Ride” our song. I think because we are kind of sisters and even though we live far a part, the saying; “Life is amazing with you on the ride” will always stay with us. But we have some famous other quotes to share as well. I don’t know whether or not the two of them will ever read this but I hope they do someday.
Finding a best friend is really hard. There’s the cattiness of a girl that always hurts people. And the emptiness of not feeling loved to worry about too. But once you find a good friend who you know won’t backstab you or tell someone else your secret, it’s pretty amazing. And I have two of those friends.

Songs I happen to love!

I decided I'd write about a blog with my top 10 songs & favorite lyrics from them:

Dreaming With A Broken Heart John Mayer:
"Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand... do I have to fall asleep with roses in my sleep. Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand.... do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand.... would you get them if I did? No you won't because you're gone... gone... gone."

Take A Breath Jonas Brothers:
"Summer comes and then it goes hold on tight embrace for cold, and it's only for a moment. We've all been down that road before searching for that something more. Walls are spinning 'round there's no sign of slowing down... so won't you take a breath? Just take a breath... people change and promises are broken clouds can move and skies will be wide open. Don't forget to take a breath. Life isn't suffocating it isn't overrated."

Goodbye Everlife:
"I'm better off, just pretending like I never really knew you. I gotta stop, holding hands with the memory of feeling... I gotta say... somethings different about the way I see you lately you feel the same, I can see it in your eyes I think it's changing."

I'd Lie Taylor Swift:
"He says he'll never fall in love as he runs his fingers through his hair, I'm laughing cause' I hope he's wrong. Cause I don't think it ever crossed his mind, he tells a joke I fake a smile, that I know all his favorite songs. And I could tell you his favorite colors green he loves to argue, born on the seventeenth, his sister's beautiful he has his father's eyes. And if you asked me if I love him.... I'd lie. He walks across the room, innocently over looks the truth, shouldn't a light go on. Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long."

Division Aly & AJ:
"You made this decision you chose our division. And I have no regrets, I wish you the very best in all that you do...ooo. Congratulations, now you are free you have bought your degree, yea you've graduated. This is your last separtion from me, they'll be no more come back no more forgive you no more thinking that somehow this song will be different, by using divsion.
Half of your friends would attend before they ever knew, where they are going to this party I'm throwing. They would be thinking I would be pleeding to you, to get back together. Well how about never. You're gonna misregret so funny I had to laugh.. you did this to you, yea you did!"

For Good Wicked:
"I've heard it said, people come into our lives for a reason, and we are lead to those who help us most to grow, if we let them, and we help them in return, well I don't know if I believe that's true. But I know I'm who I am today, because I knew you. Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun. Like a stream that mets a bolder half way through the wood, who can I say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you, I have been changed for good.

Flattery Aly & AJ:
"Please don't flatter yourself, you're not the only this heart has ever felt. Please don't exagerate, don't tell me you're okay, okay, okay. I will admit if you admit it's harder then we both thought. It's easier to fall apart, look where we are? Where we are... I can forgive it, I can't forget it. You left me here with all these scars, and you can't deny the hardest part, I'm not in your arms.

No One Aly & AJ:
"And I ask myself, who do I wanna be? Do I wanna throw the key away, and invent a new me. And I tell myself, no onee, no I, don't wanna be no one but me."

Disenchated My Chemical Romance:
"You're just a sad song with nothing to say, about a lifelong wait for a hospital stay."

I Don't Love You My Chemical Romance:
"When you go... would you have the guts to say, I don't love you, like I did yesterday."

More to come soon <3333 Peace!

Pro life or Pro choice?

So today I went to the "March For Life" in Washington D.C. and wow. First I only went because I wanted to get the school day off, and I know that's terrible. But afterwards I felt good, like really happy that I had done something amazing for someone else, especially someone unborn.
So if you don't know what pro life and pro choice are, I can tell you it's all about abortion.
Abortion is when you kill a baby before it's born. It used to be illegal but then in 1973, there was a case for the US supreme court "Roe Vs. Wade" in which they decided abortion would be legal but only under certain terms, (early pregnancy, etc.), like that's any better. It usually pertains to an unwed mother, someone young or someone who wasn't expecting to get pregnant. It's a terrible thing and after seeing the realization of it all it really got me upset.
Pro life is basically, against abortion and making it illegal to basically, Murder babies, before they even get a say in things.
Pro choice is having abortion remain legal because every person has a choice. Person is the operative word. Meaning only the mother gets a choice, the baby gets absolutely no say which is terrible.
I as you can tell, am pro-life. I find it terrible that someone could kill an innocent person who is still unborn, I mean really. That kid could've found the cure for cancer, or been a revolutionary president, but they weren't even given a chance.
So "March For Life" is when pro life patrons come from all over the country, in my case it was only an hour to drive, but I saw people from Tennessee, and even California who came. You hear two hours worth of speeches and then you all band together and walk up Constitution street, to the Supreme court building on the day Abortion was made legal (January 22ND). It's really a powerful march, and it's amazing what one day in Washington can do for you.
The weather was so terrible today but thank God it didn't rain, snow, sleet, or anything of the sort. It was just cloudy and cold, but it was worth it.
I've never seen so many people with so many signs in my life and if I were you I'd consider taking off and coming to Washington next year to march. It's really an uplifting experience.

If you're interested in becoming a pro-life activist or want to learn more about it:
http://www.prolife.com/
http://www.nrlc.org/
You can also just google prolife and see what comes up!
If you're interested in learning about the Roe Vs. Wade case because my discription wasn't the best:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roe_v._Wade
And some info about the march next year:
http://www2.marchforlife.org/
Agan google March For Life and there's a ton of results.

P.L.H.
N.C.L.