Hola mi amigos!
So tomorrow is Wednsday meaning my Thanksgiving break!!! But for Thanksgiving, you're supposed to give thanks. Really I don't have anything to be thankful for because I've been a pretty shitty friend (excuse my french).
I've lost friends, because of being a bad friend, and I've lost friends because of living arangements and high school.
My one best friend whom I could count on through thik and thin, through all the shit I've been through. And sitting on a Greyhound bus, with some crazy guy, and a dude who wouldn't stop laughing and getting lost in the streets of New York was LeAnne. And I betrayed her, I took all my anger out on her that was really directed towards Bridgette.
I got pretty crazy and pyscho over the past couple weeks, and I ended up saying things I didn't mean. Which mostly went to LeAnne and Aimee, whom have been there for me since July with that one comment I wrote to them.
They sat with me through Kasey and Jessy, whom I still love to death but they sat with me while I cried, and they stuck up for me.
Not to mention, we lasted an entire trip to Virginia without ONE fight, plus to top it all off, we rode the swings together, and still survived.
And not to forget, getting lost in New York, taking a FREAKY bus with a guy who talked to himself, eating sucky food, and waiting for hours in the pouring rain for the four boys we love!
We officially became the JB Poners and through tough times we stuck it out.
But it's not the same anymore, because of me.
So with that, this is my final appolge (Sp?) too my two sisters, best friends, New York buddy, Maryland Push Play girl, Page Kooney Girls. I'm sorry for ever hurting you, and most likely this is probably good-bye but whatever.
This is my last message, blog, comment, etc.. I just wanted you all to know how truely sorry I am.
And to all Aimee, and LeAnne's friends who think I'm a freak and wackoo, I'm sorry for that too.
Only LeAnne will understand this.
But that's all, I love you girls soooo effin much and I have to say this:
The view is so clear and it's crazy up here.
Life is amazing with you on the ride
To Virigina and New York ahahah!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
People Have Problems
So anyone who knows me, knows I'm very protective of my friends.
I take up for them when I know times are shitty and if someone is the root of all their shittyness. Well then righty oh, you get a nice talk from Natalie.
Derek, one of my friends has not only hurt 1 but has hurt 2 of my closest and dearest friends. Causing one friendship to end. I have to say that he could surely fool you with everything he says and does and being a sweetheart. But in the end you wake up every morning, and you think someone is different, but in the end their nothing but the person you hopped they weren't.
Looking back on all this and wishing I had love makes me realize that it causes nothing but pain. My oldest and probably closest friend doesn't believe in love anymore.
Because of you.
And this is what I have and want to say to you Derek.
Dear Derek,
First off you are exactly what you didn't want to be.
A fake and empty person.
You deserve EVERYTHING that has happened to you and frankly, you deserve every single wond you have.
You are one of the worse guys, ANYONE could've ever fallen for, especially because you know Kasey is way to good for you. First it was playing two girls at once, you may think you didn't but you did. You played them cold and you played them hard.
And in the end you talked bad about them. You think you are so amazing, news flash first off, you look nothing like Joe Jonas. You need to look in a mirror and see the real you.
And even if you did, once someone actually spent time with you, they'd realize exactly how terrible you are.
You said you were falling in love with Kasey but in the end it was all fake?
Just because you've obviously had a lot of pain in your life but all I can say is blame yourself, you don't tell anyone but your friends and if you know what's good for you you'd tell someone.
You are nothing but a sel-fish idiot who obviously needs to open his eyes and realize excuse my language but you're a dick.
And for you to over go around telling people how amazing or how much you love them, that's wrong.
You need to just open your eyes and see.
You're exactly what you didn't want to be.
You're the same guy every guy is, no matter how much you just want to be the nice guy next door. You will always be the guy who broke one of my best friends hearts, and who needs a lot of a harder slapping, then you actually get.
Yea this may be rude, this may cause you to call me a bitch. And it may cause Sammy to never talk to me again.
But this is what happens when you mess with my friends.
I have lost all my respect for you and your friends and everything that's happened in your past, every little thing that bugs you you deserve and I hope you live with that pain forever.
You are a cold hard, jerk who needs to open his eyes and realize.
He's just another, player.
Have a nice life jerk, I hope you have a cold hard life full of pain and sadness because that's EXACTLY what you deserve.
Oh and try to come back to Kasey. You'll get more then a blog.
PONED
Oh and FYI everytime you talked to me about Kasey, this is what I thought about you:
Oh and Kasey's personal favorite:
I take up for them when I know times are shitty and if someone is the root of all their shittyness. Well then righty oh, you get a nice talk from Natalie.
Derek, one of my friends has not only hurt 1 but has hurt 2 of my closest and dearest friends. Causing one friendship to end. I have to say that he could surely fool you with everything he says and does and being a sweetheart. But in the end you wake up every morning, and you think someone is different, but in the end their nothing but the person you hopped they weren't.
Looking back on all this and wishing I had love makes me realize that it causes nothing but pain. My oldest and probably closest friend doesn't believe in love anymore.
Because of you.
And this is what I have and want to say to you Derek.
Dear Derek,
First off you are exactly what you didn't want to be.
A fake and empty person.
You deserve EVERYTHING that has happened to you and frankly, you deserve every single wond you have.
You are one of the worse guys, ANYONE could've ever fallen for, especially because you know Kasey is way to good for you. First it was playing two girls at once, you may think you didn't but you did. You played them cold and you played them hard.
And in the end you talked bad about them. You think you are so amazing, news flash first off, you look nothing like Joe Jonas. You need to look in a mirror and see the real you.
And even if you did, once someone actually spent time with you, they'd realize exactly how terrible you are.
You said you were falling in love with Kasey but in the end it was all fake?
Just because you've obviously had a lot of pain in your life but all I can say is blame yourself, you don't tell anyone but your friends and if you know what's good for you you'd tell someone.
You are nothing but a sel-fish idiot who obviously needs to open his eyes and realize excuse my language but you're a dick.
And for you to over go around telling people how amazing or how much you love them, that's wrong.
You need to just open your eyes and see.
You're exactly what you didn't want to be.
You're the same guy every guy is, no matter how much you just want to be the nice guy next door. You will always be the guy who broke one of my best friends hearts, and who needs a lot of a harder slapping, then you actually get.
Yea this may be rude, this may cause you to call me a bitch. And it may cause Sammy to never talk to me again.
But this is what happens when you mess with my friends.
I have lost all my respect for you and your friends and everything that's happened in your past, every little thing that bugs you you deserve and I hope you live with that pain forever.
You are a cold hard, jerk who needs to open his eyes and realize.
He's just another, player.
Have a nice life jerk, I hope you have a cold hard life full of pain and sadness because that's EXACTLY what you deserve.
Oh and try to come back to Kasey. You'll get more then a blog.
PONED
Oh and FYI everytime you talked to me about Kasey, this is what I thought about you:
Oh and Kasey's personal favorite:
Monday, November 5, 2007
Change
Change is a scary thing. It's one of those things you know is going to happen but you try your best to avoid it at any cost what so ever. You even think if you can just hide under the covers and count to a bajillion it will all just stay like that, but then you wake up and you realize nothing is ever the same and everything changes.
Ever since high school these changes have occured, changes that I thought would never happen but still widdled their way into my in-genious plan. I mean c'mon my best friend, who I can still remember was the first person at Hereford to ever say "Hi" to me is living with someone I really hate. I'm worried she could get in trouble just because, the person she's living with is the person who could get her in trouble and more then ever I just wish I was back in elementry school, where nothing bad ever happened and that you were always assured something and that was to have the same people in the same class and that everyone liked eachother and there was no drama.
I watched as my favorite band, became something huge, became something amazing and I watched as millions of screaming girls became in awe with these boys who tried to be our friends, the boys who sang for no one the boys who sat in a crowded mini-van just to see us. Now I see these 945486308 girls screaming JONAS JONAS JONAS! and it feels like these guys who you thought you knew were leaving you forever. It's those times, those times when I think of September 19th and how happy I was, that I was in reaching distance of The JOE JONAS! The guy who stole my heart, the guy who I thought was just the greatest the guy I most thought was like me, and the guy whom became my hero along with his brothers, it's those days when I think back to the excitment and the screaming that I really, really wish I could keep forever. It's held in a special place in my heart because it was one of the best nights of my life.
Sure Jonas will become huge, make millions, marry some super-model, have kids and die happy. They did what they wanted but yet, we never even got to say goodbye.
There are a lot of things I could say to those boys today, I'd say how much I miss them, and I may even insult them a few times, but above all I'd say how truely, truely proud I am of them. They changed my life and even though I'm letting go of the Jonas Brothers, I'm not letting go of Kevin, Joe and Nick. Those three guys, whom I have to say did become my friends in a way, they did become the guys I built a special relationship with even though they didn't know, it was like we were friends. And when they go multi-platinum and out sell Kelly Clarkson they will always, and I mean always be Kevin Joe and Nick, not the Jonas Brothers, but the guys who lived in Jersey, with their mom, dad and little brother, Frankie, and their best friends were Mandy & Joey.
And even when I forget about them and my life becomes a non-jonas life there will ALWAYS be a small place in my heart for them. Is this goodbye to my Jonas obsession? I'm not quite sure. But for right now, I just want to think of all those amazing things and experiences I have gotten from them.
"People change, and promises are broken"
"Hold back your thoughts and live like robots because we all know what goes on"
Above all this, true, original fan stuff, I know how much they did and do care about these fans and to me they will always be the guys who had this in their songs:
"But she only sang, S Club 7 And all those boy bands."
Cheesy I know but thanks for reading!
Love Always,
N.C.L.
Ever since high school these changes have occured, changes that I thought would never happen but still widdled their way into my in-genious plan. I mean c'mon my best friend, who I can still remember was the first person at Hereford to ever say "Hi" to me is living with someone I really hate. I'm worried she could get in trouble just because, the person she's living with is the person who could get her in trouble and more then ever I just wish I was back in elementry school, where nothing bad ever happened and that you were always assured something and that was to have the same people in the same class and that everyone liked eachother and there was no drama.
I watched as my favorite band, became something huge, became something amazing and I watched as millions of screaming girls became in awe with these boys who tried to be our friends, the boys who sang for no one the boys who sat in a crowded mini-van just to see us. Now I see these 945486308 girls screaming JONAS JONAS JONAS! and it feels like these guys who you thought you knew were leaving you forever. It's those times, those times when I think of September 19th and how happy I was, that I was in reaching distance of The JOE JONAS! The guy who stole my heart, the guy who I thought was just the greatest the guy I most thought was like me, and the guy whom became my hero along with his brothers, it's those days when I think back to the excitment and the screaming that I really, really wish I could keep forever. It's held in a special place in my heart because it was one of the best nights of my life.
Sure Jonas will become huge, make millions, marry some super-model, have kids and die happy. They did what they wanted but yet, we never even got to say goodbye.
There are a lot of things I could say to those boys today, I'd say how much I miss them, and I may even insult them a few times, but above all I'd say how truely, truely proud I am of them. They changed my life and even though I'm letting go of the Jonas Brothers, I'm not letting go of Kevin, Joe and Nick. Those three guys, whom I have to say did become my friends in a way, they did become the guys I built a special relationship with even though they didn't know, it was like we were friends. And when they go multi-platinum and out sell Kelly Clarkson they will always, and I mean always be Kevin Joe and Nick, not the Jonas Brothers, but the guys who lived in Jersey, with their mom, dad and little brother, Frankie, and their best friends were Mandy & Joey.
And even when I forget about them and my life becomes a non-jonas life there will ALWAYS be a small place in my heart for them. Is this goodbye to my Jonas obsession? I'm not quite sure. But for right now, I just want to think of all those amazing things and experiences I have gotten from them.
"People change, and promises are broken"
"Hold back your thoughts and live like robots because we all know what goes on"
Above all this, true, original fan stuff, I know how much they did and do care about these fans and to me they will always be the guys who had this in their songs:
"But she only sang, S Club 7 And all those boy bands."
Cheesy I know but thanks for reading!
Love Always,
N.C.L.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
The meaning of a teeny bopper
Hola Bloggers,
So quite a lot of all this Jonas-drama is because of them changing, them getting more fans, and a couple other things that's really kinda stupid. But one big part are teeny boppers.
What is a teeny Bopper you ask?
Wikipedia says this:
A teenybopper is a teenager, especially a girl in her early teens, who follows teenage fashions in music, clothes, etc.
Natalie's opinion?
A teeny bopper is a young kid who follows a band, says she's Mrs. so and so (in this case Jonas), has every single picture of them hanging on her wall, and some other things that really are just crazy.
So quite a lot of all this Jonas-drama is because of them changing, them getting more fans, and a couple other things that's really kinda stupid. But one big part are teeny boppers.
What is a teeny Bopper you ask?
Wikipedia says this:
A teenybopper is a teenager, especially a girl in her early teens, who follows teenage fashions in music, clothes, etc.
Natalie's opinion?
A teeny bopper is a young kid who follows a band, says she's Mrs. so and so (in this case Jonas), has every single picture of them hanging on her wall, and some other things that really are just crazy.
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