Thursday, December 27, 2007

2007

January 14th 2007- January 14th marked the one year anniversery of when I first heard about Jonas, it was an amazing day.



January 31st 2007- On January 31st I became one of the biggest Taylor Swift Fans in the universe, she's still my favorite, and I know I'll meet her someday.



April 7th 2007- I learned who my true friends are.



April 12th 2007- I vowed never to take anyone to Florida besides Bridgette.



May 15th 2007- I found Lily at Petsmart, and told my mom we had to get her!



May 17th 2007- My mom agreed, and she went and picked up Lily (it was also her Birthday).



June 17th 2007- My last day of Middle school occured.



June 24th 2007- I took my 7th trip to Hershey Park to see the Jonas Brothers twice. I met Chad, Ashley and Mackenzie.

Highlights of Hershey:

- Blonde haired witch.

- Why do we have to get up at 3 AM?

- We left at 8 AM smartie.

- Natalie! Stop videotapping.

- I don't smell any chocolate

- CHAD! Do you like your job?

- Finding a better spot in line at the top.

- Crazy girl who we saw again.

- Joe's mine! Why do you want him?

- Finding the bathroom.

- Kasey having to pee.

- Great Bear

- Crazy New York lady!

- Bathroom trips.

- Waving to ski lift people.


June 26th 2007- I talked to Paul for the first time over MySpace.



June 28th 2007- Kasey & I came up with a solution to the problem with missing the boys.



July 26th 2007- Kasey & Jessy came over and we called Paul and talked to him for the first time.

July 17th 2007- I commented LOL for the first time.

July 19th 2007- I joined LOL.

July 20th 2007- Saw Cheyenne Kimball and Katelyn Tarver and rode the Tea cups.

Highlights:

- Getting directions.

- Tea cups!

- Waiting for them to get off the pirate ship

- Robin was hot.

- And the Jonas Brothers on August 2nd. AHHHH!

July 27th 2007- We rented a van and headed with Kasey, Jessy, Rosie, my stepmom and my dad to New Jersey. I also have you know we played 385902386 tricks on my sister and Jessy, not to mention coming up with the saying "The Hottub; where dreams come true"



July 28th 2007- The famous saying "The hottub is out of oder" came about, and we went to the ballooning festival.

Highlights of BF:

- Kasey sang "R.E.S.P.E.C.T." and came in second place, and got 25 dollars.

- We met Paul, for the first time.

- We saw JB preform

- We met Jonas, and Kevin told Paul he was awesome.

- Jessy fainted.

- I cussed A LOT.

- We met up with Ashley.

- We spent Kasey's winning money on dinner and gave a very genorous tip.



July 29th 2007- My sister and I went to a weird 'stuck in the 70's' church which we couldn't even describe to Kasey & Jessy. Then we went to Philly to see JB:

Highlights of Philly:

- We had to find a parking spot.

- Getting in the wrong line.

- Getting water.

- "I'm DONE!" music stops.

- Almost getting electricuted.

- BYE BYE BYE

- My hat.

- Kip

- Meeting JB again.



August 2nd 2007- We saw Jonas at Six Flags, MD.

Highlights:

- Seeing Paul again.

- Meeting Taz.

- Wasting 5 dollars on that stupid get it in the whole game.

- Tea cups (again)

- Bought 20 dollars worth of water.

- French Fries.

- Video

- Joe and Paul both said; "You're hat is like whoa!"

August 7th 2007- JB's CD came out and gee wilikers was I excited!

August 18th 2007- I started Pushplayfan.com which was called then; "pushplay.fangap.com"

August 19th 2007- I went to OC with my mom and sister.

August 22nd 2007- I rode the Sea rocket, my first boat trip since the "After Dinner Cruise" of 'o4. No accidents :)

August 23rd 2007- That marked the worst OC trip yet!

August 29th 2007- I started at Hereford High.

August 30th 2007- I moved in with my mom.

September 1st 2007- I met LeAnne & Aimee, with some others for the first time at Maryland fair!

September 3rd 2007- Aimee and LeAnne met me at the grocery store, and they spent the night. We played with chalk and walked through cemetaries.

September 5th 2007- I started at KDHS.

September 9th 2007- I went back to Hereford.

September 18th 2007- Kasey & Jess and I stopped being friends.

Ocotober 1st 2007- We made the JB Poner's shirts.

Ocotober 7th 2007- We saw JB in VA!

Highlights:

- Scaring LeAnne's mom.

- Supernatural

- Chick Fil' A

- Sunburn

- No Cameras.

- Carride.

- Kip.

- Starwells.

Ocotober 23rd 2007- I met the evil and ficcious Derek.

October 25th 2007- One good thing came out of Derek, I started talking to Kasey & Jessy again!

Ocotber 29th 2007- LeAnne, my mom and I went to NYC for the Push Play Press Conference.

To many highlights!

November 8th 2007- I turned 15.

December 3rd 2007- 1 year ago I met Kasey & Jessy and met JB.

December 10th 2007- Thanks to evil and ficcious brainwashing Derek, he told me to quit LOL, by making up some BIG lies, so I left LOL.

December 17th 2007- I started talking to LeAnne again and left Derek behind (thank God)

December 25th 2007- I got TMX YAYA!

December 27th 2007- I saw Aly & AJ in concert!

THE END OF '07!

Love,
N.C.L.





Sunday, December 16, 2007

Love.

Sunday's are always a blah. I have to say I really can't put into words how much I hate Sundays. They're always those days when you can have fun and then realize tomorrow you have to go to school the next day. I really hate Sundays. It's one of those burst your bubble days. Ugh... anyways after some major crying last night, I have come to the tragic conclusion that love, really doesn't exist.
The Notebook. It's one of my favorite movies, it's about an old man who has to stay with his wife in an old-folks home because she battling a diease that escapes my head right now. But it's the one that makes you forget stuff (Maybe I have it). But there's a whole other story with it, full of leaving and hiding notes and blah blah. Although that is what we would call a true love story, how often does that really happen? They meet as teenagers, she leaves, he goes into manic depression, she comes back, they fall in love again, she has to chose one man to be with forever, she choses him, they live happily ever after and die old in their sleep. Oh yea that really could happen.
The truth is, it can't and after all this drama last night, I truely, truely don't believe in it. No matter how much I've drempt about it and how many times I've wished for it. It will never happen, for me.
People say it changes their lives, it has yet to change mine. And when it did I couldn't do anything about it because I'm still here alone, while everyone else isn't.
That's all for stupid Sunday.
Real life I have to go back to tomorrow.
Peace. Love. Hope.
NCL.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Believe.

The Do's
- I do believe in God.
- I do believe in fait.
- I do believe in staying pure till marriage.
- I do believe it is possible for a guy to not be a jerk.
- I do believe in gay marriage.
- I do believe there is a higher power.
- I do believe that the drinking age is to young.
- I do believe that smoking should be illegal.
- I do believe Wal*Mart doesn't bake their own cakes.
- I do believe that there is ONE person out there for someone.
- I do believe in the Devil.
- I do believe God gives you choices, whether you take the right one is a different story.
- I do believe promises are broken, and people make mistakes.
- I do believe concerts are an amazing experience and should be experienced by anyone who loves musics.
- I do believe music can change your life.
- I do believe people who are in jail can change.
- I do believe people do change.
- I do believe in love at first sight.
- I do believe that there are ghosts.
- I do believe you go to heaven when you die.
-I do believe there is a hell.
- I do believe there is purgatory.
- I do believe no one deserves to die.
- I do believe animals have rights.
- I do believe that Globel Warming is occuring.
- I do believe teen pregancy is wrong.
- I do believe that the Lord has a plan for everyone.

The Don't's.
- I don't believe evolution.
- I don't believe everything happens for a reason.
- I don't believe there is are two choices, I believe there are right and wrong ones.
- I don't believe in re-creation.
- I don't believe in Santa.
- I don't believe that everyone can find their solmate.
- I don't believe in the death penalty.
- I don't believe animals should die, just because.
- I don't believe in smoking.
- I don't believe in certain people.

MORE WILL BE ADDED LATER!



Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I was told I now have Annixiety Disorder

Yesterday I took my first trip to my theropist.
She was surprisingly very nice. And listened extremely well, which I pictured she would since it is in fact her job. I told her all of my problems, and she explained to me that I have an Annixiety disorder.
Apparently it is when I get something so worked up, my stomach hurts, and everything ends up going all sjhyiuyeiophjdkhjsk. She said that it will go away after about 1,000 sessions. And apparently she has to have a few talks with my Step-mom and I because most of the problem is my step-mom.
I don't know if you all know of my step-sister. She does not live with me, she's a sophmore in college. But she's said some pretty mean remarks to my step-mom causing her to take all her anger out on me.
This morning I overheard my step-mom say; "she has to go" I immediatly panicked beings the fact my step-mom would be kicking me out but much to my surprise she didn't kick me out, my dad took me to school and told me everything would be fine.
I hope.
It seems like even if I forget to do one thing everything turns bad, and sour. I get yelled at and called a "spoiled brat" more times then I can count and then she says I can't live there anymore. That then upsets me, so I call my mom and doesn't listen, but still.
I have a feeling tonight is one of those nights where her anger will all come out on me. And there's nothing I or my dad can do about it.
I just have to sit there and listen to her yell and scream about how spoiled I am. And I have to say, it sucks because when you're being told by someone who should be your parent that you're a terrible person, and have absolutly no right to live on this earth, you kind of feel like you're a piece of crap.
All this was why I moved with my mom, but it didn't work out. I hate feeling this way. And I know I have depression and it's all because of her.
The stupid women I'm stuck with.
I wish it would all just go away, but it can't.
And on December 28th it will all be final.
My dad has no idea that most of my pain comes from her.
It sucks to know he will never know that he made my life a living hell because he married her.
I can't take any of this anymore, it's coming towards my breaking point.
And there's absolutly nothing I can do but sit and watch my world crumble down.
Talk to you all soon,
N.C.L.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Is it all real?

There are a lot of things I don't get, love being one of them.
How come it works for everyone else except me?
I mean, I know I'm fat I don't need anyone to tell me that. And I know I'm ugly but what I don't really get is why I haven't even had a glimpse of love. I've had jerk boyfriends that lasted a couple days but I mean no one likes me. And my school has this thing yea it's called a love bug. I remember the days I could tell everything to my best friend, but not anymore.
So I'm telling it to you all.
I really don't get it at all. I'm seeing it happen but nothing for me. Guys I like always like the pretty girls why not me? I guess the movies lie huh? Yep, they do.
So I'm joining team Kasey.
I don't believe in love anymore.
As much as I want to, I just don't.
The end.
P.L.H.
N.C.L.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Kasey & Jessica Griffith KJN EST: December 3rd!

On December 3rd 2006, I saw the Jonas Brothers at the Theatre of living arts in Philly. Not only did I meet the Jonas Brothers, but I met my best friends too.
Here's the story of KJN, Enjoy!
It all started on December 3rd:
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Notice behind Kallie's head Jessy is standing there.
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And behind my beautiful head, Kasey and Jessy's mom is standing.
Then when I arrived home I commented Joyce Kimberly's MySpace, Kasey did too.
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This was Kasey's comment, mine was sadly lost. But look at that. Kasey soon added me and we started talking. After some extremely long MySpace IM talks, I switched to AIM.
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Kasey and me IMing waho!
Pretty soon, KJN was invented:
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Our first KJN logo!
Then Average To Nothing came:
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Our first A2N logo!
Then our first meeting occured:
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My first picture with Kasey
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My first picture with Jessy.
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Yea, we hang out in showers.
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Kasey and her fridges....
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Our first Average To Nothing picture
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We so goofy!
Then we had our second meeting! It was funn!
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Ohh boy!
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This pretty much scared the shit out of me.
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This did too.
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She's close enough to Santa
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I never caught her :(
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We poned that day
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I love her to death
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The next american idols?
Then came our Simple Obsession par-tay!
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Our old/new band image!
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Baby bottle pop you can lick it shake it and dunk it, sweet candy fun.
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When we wouldn't try the smoothies, Jessy had to try it first.
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In case you didn't notice, Jess and I HATE Hannah Montana.
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We were singing or dancing or something I don't know.
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In the process of them becoming my best friends, they became my One Tree Hill buddies!
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Season 3, yes I have all of the seasons.
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So Jess basically loves this picture, I don't know why.
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OMG Season 2! What a surprise!!!
Dropout Year CD Release
So the funniest thing happened, Adam Henderson became our cookie monster, yes he did.
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After an hour of waiting to get inside, yes in the heat, I got sunburn at this concert and it wasn't even outside.
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Still waiting....
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After moshing...
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The underage X's
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Still freaked out from the moshing....
Jonas trip #1 Hershey PA- June 24th 2007
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That's the pimp hat thank you very much.
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That's all we do in life
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When we finally got to Hershey
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I felt left out because everyone had JB stuff so we drew all over my arms
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She had to pee
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Who's this dude you ask? This dude is Chad, Chad Kelly.
He's my hero.
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We even took a picture with him, ain't it purty?
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After we convinced Kasey & Jessy's parents to let us stay for the second one.
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My hair looked good that day
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Oh Kasey. That was sunburn #2 of the summer thank you very much!
Trip #2 Cheyenne & Katelyn Tarver- Six Flags
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Poor Katelyn, that's all I gotta say.
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Gotta love Cheyenne....
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And her hot bassiest :)
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Lala Jess!
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We screamed "Goodnight & Goodbye" on the tea cups lol.
Trip #3 Jonas- New Jersey, Ballooning.
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Dude, it's Jersey cars
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Obsessing over Kasey's ipod
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She should've won, but we spent her second place money on dinner.
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Ballooning.
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What's wrong with this sign? Bet'cha don't know!
Philidelphia, PA.
It rained A LOT, and thanks to three lovely boys, we got caught in it and almost got electricuted. But on the good side, there was a positive aspect of it:
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That dude is Kip AKA Max.
We dared Jessy to get a picture with him, she did but I can't find the picture!
Maryland Six Flags

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This is Paul, we talk to him at 3:30 AM

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The were named "Cutest Couple" by KJN

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Kasey.... she loves her water bottle.
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My favorite JB Group!
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I hate Paul.
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VIP Area, we ate A LOT of Starburst for that.
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Yea so they don't love me that much for this.
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That's Taz. Yea.
That's it, in the words of Natasha Bedingfeild. The rest is still Unwritten!
THE END!